Long story short, I’m a mess and have been for almost two months.

I feel horrible in more ways than one. I’ve fallen into another depression that has been ongoing since the beginning of February and I’m not starting to feel much better yet. I have made a little bit of progress in that I am back on my computers for the first time in I don’t know how long. I tried playing some video games but got bored quickly and logged off. I tried working on a new artwork today. I opened up Poser and started setting up a scene but then lost track of my idea and quit both trying and the program. Still, I have to recognize that even trying to do this stuff is still progress. Progress I haven’t come close to in almost two months until today. Tomorrow, I see the doctor that adjusts my medications. I’m hoping she’ll be able to do something to help me but I’m not feeling very hopeful.

I’m also suffering from physical pain due to gallstones. I’m scheduled to have my gallbladder removed in April but I’m having stabbing, throbbing pains until then. My headaches haven’t exactly gone away either. I’m at least hoping the gallbladder pain goes away after the surgery. Guess I’ll have to go back to the doctor and ask more ideas about how to treat my chronic headaches. She’ll probably order more blood tests. They love ordering more blood tests over there.

On the bright side, I got to finally see Thor Ragnarok and Jessica Jones Season 2 like I wanted to in this post. The Thor movie is awesome. I’ve re-watched it about four times so far and I still want to watch it some more. Season 2 of Jessica Jones was good and alone worth the Netflix sub fee for the month. I can’t compare it to Season 1 because it’s been too long since I watched Season 1. I guess I’ll have to re-watch it before my sub goes out again. I’ve also been watching The Joel McHale Show on Netflix (basically, it’s The Soup but with no censors) and I saw the latest Ricky Gervais stand-up special. Laughed so much on those two shows last night I made myself hurt even worse. Worth it. I also want to see Black Mirror, Mind Hunters, and a few other shows on Netflix. I’m not sure I should watch 13 Reasons Why. That seems like it would be a bad idea. Now I’m just counting down the days until The Last Jedi comes out on blu-ray so I can watch it a million times and cry every time it ends at least until Episode IX comes out.

I’ve rambled enough. I’m going to go to look over a few more draft posts on this blog then go try to get some sleep. Here’s hoping your health is better than mine and also that mine will get better.