I’ve now been sick for… hell, I’ve lost count. I think it’s been since the third week of February. I’ve been to an Ear, Nose, and Throat specialist and they sent me to get a CT scan of my sinus. I did that last week and should get results back sometime this week (unless they make me wait to hear anything until my follow-up appointment). I don’t believe I’ve had a fever lately but I’m still in constant pain every time I breathe. I just wish this sinus infection or whatever it is goes away soon. I even went on another round of antibiotics (a stronger type that I hadn’t been on before) after seeing the ENT doctor. That didn’t help much, unfortunately. All I can do now is wait for those scan results and hope they find out what exactly is wrong and how to fix it.

I did manage to get out to see Avengers Endgame early last week. I enjoyed it… and also teared up a few times. (Not outright crying, just some tears here and there. Really glad I stuck a little package of tissues into my purse before leaving for the theater. Also glad I went to the bathroom right before the movie started. I didn’t want to miss a thing and I managed to get through the whole three hour movie while also drinking a large Coke Zero! LOL) I may go see the movie again (it really was that good and there was just so much to see) and I’ll definitely be getting it on blu-ray when it comes out.

I managed to finally get my Funko Pops! Collection up to date on this blog. I probably won’t get any Avengers Endgame Pops because they aren’t that different from what I have now and I don’t really have room for them. I’ll just save my money for (maybe) Star Wars IX: Rise of Skywalker Pops instead or something else down the road. I still need to get my hands on one of those Jaws shark Pops. Damn, it never ends!

So what have I been doing besides sleeping/resting, watching movies, and being sick? Well, I’ve also been playing a lot of Mass Effect (all four games). For a while it was the only thing that could get me out of bed but I’m starting to lose interest. I’m starting to lose interest in everything which has me worried that I may be slipping into another depression. I tried to work on a new artwork that is Mass Effect themed and, for the most part, finished it. I’m still not sure if I like it or not but I’ll post it here so you can see it and tell me what you think of it and if I should make more. I tried to style it in the same way as the third game with high contrast, film grain, and lots of lens flares. So, is it any good? Should I continue creating more Mass Effect themed artworks? Let me know!

I was unable to sleep last night even after taking my pills for sleep. Probably for the best. I used the sleeping pills for the first time in a while the night before last and had weird dreams and nightmares all night long. So for now I’m just going to sip my coffee and try working on a new artwork. This artwork that I’m working on right now is centered around one of my favorite Avengers, Black Widow. I’m still trying to get her outfit to look “just right” and then I’ll move on to creating the scene around her. I think the character’s likeness is about as close as I need it to be (it’s an artistic interpretation after all) though I may need to work on the base body shape a little more. I’ll try to post a preview render here as soon as I am able.

I’m starting to feel worse by the day. I started on this entry back on Sunday or Monday and now it’s Wednesday evening. I keep trying to do… anything… but it’s a colossal struggle just to get out of bed each day and on most days I lose for countless hours. I want to get back to work on my art projects and anything but between the sinus affliction and my worsening depression, it’s all I can do to just keep surviving.

That’s all for now. I’m going to go rest for a while before dinner.